HE'S GOT THIS!

If you read my blog post from yesterday, you could probably sense that I was a little stressed.  Ok, I was a LOT stressed!  I was just so frustrated with myself for missing something that seemed so big that was right in front of my face!  When I pulled the copies of our home study out of the envelope today, there was a BIG, YELLOW post-it note on the TOP copy of the home studies that said, "Send this copy with your I-600a to USCIS."  REALLY?!?!?!  I still cannot believe that I missed this when I am trying SO HARD to be organized (And I have to WORK REALLY HARD AT BEING ORGANIZED!  It does NOT COME NATURALLY!) through all of this!

I went to FedEx this afternoon after school to send our home study to The Department of Homeland Security to be matched with our I-600a application.  As I got in my car, I looked up and noticed this beautiful gift...

It was a much needed reminder from God saying, "Hey Leslie, I've got this!  I promise!"  It was a reminder and a promise that I needed so much today!  

I am typically a REALLY laid back girl, but I have been trying so hard to be a "list person" and to be organized and all these things that I am really not that I'm becoming so uptight... and I don't like it!

So... I'm forgiving myself!  I'm letting go of the control (that I'm really not good at having anyway) and I'm giving it back to God!  HE'S GOT THIS!!!  

OH, HOW THANKFUL I AM!!

HE'S GOT THIS!!!

Making Mistakes...

So, we've been waiting for our fingerprinting appointment from the USCIS (United States Citizenship & Immigration Services) after submitting our I-600a (That's the Application for Advance Processing of Orphan Petition.) form July 11.  We got a receipt from them July 16 that said that they had received our application and payment (which had already gone through the bank and been processed) and it also said that we needed to be looking for our fingerprinting appointment in the next 10-14 days.

We have waited...

And waited...

And those 10-14 days have passed so I called USCIS.  I called yesterday after school and was on hold for over an hour.  I couldn't leave school until 5 and they close at 6, so I hung up at 6:15 when I still hadn't spoken to anyone.

I called again today and spoke to someone.  I didn't hear the news I wanted, but I sure am glad that I called!  The conversation went a little something like this...

USCIS Lady: "Did you include your home study with your application?"

Me: "No.  Was I supposed to include our home study with our application?"

USCIS Lady: "Did an agency help you with this?"

Me:  "Yes, we were given very specific directions - that I read SEVERAL TIMES.  I really don't remember it saying anything about including our home study with the application, but I suppose I could have overlooked it.  I don't think I did because I REALLY read those directions OVER AND OVER AND OVER again so I wouldn't jeopardize anything in this process... but... I'm sure I could have made a big mistake..."

(I was having a TERRIBLE time holding in the tears at this point!  Those of you who know me well, I'm sure can imagine how fast I was talking too at this point!)

USCIS Lady: "You need to go the the USCIS website and download the directions there.  On your receipt, does it say that you missing your home study?"

Me:  "No, it doesn't say it anywhere."

(She was actually very nice and I was managing to remain calm - amazingly - and I was using a nice tone as well.)

USCIS Lady:  "Hmmm... They must have changed the form.  Well, it SHOULD say that.  I suppose it is good that you called.  Otherwise, your application would sit on a shelf for a year and then it would just get thrown away without your home study."

Me:  "I just want to cry right now."

USCIS Lady:  "Oh, there's no reason to cry.  This really isn't that big of a deal."

I just wanted to SCREAM!!  WHAT?!?!?!  NOT A BIG DEAL?!?!?!?  It's JUST MY BABY!!!!!  I managed to keep that on the inside, though, and she told me how to send in our home study and get it matched with our application.

When I got home, I immediately went to find those directions for filling out that form!  Guess what I found...

Does anyone else see it???

YEP!!  Beside the 4., it tells what to send.  It includes payment, documents, and HOME STUDY!!!!  How did I miss that?!?!?!?!  I can not tell you how many times I read this!!!  I have been so careful NOT to miss ANY DETAIL in this process because I have been so scared that I would jeopardize some crucial step in bringing our baby home!  It's no secret that organization and paperwork are not strengths of mine.  That's why I have been SO CAREFUL!  I just don't know how I missed it!

It really ISN'T the end of the world!  I know it isn't!  The nice lady at USCIS (She REALLY was VERY NICE!) told me how to fix this (and it really is very fixable)!  I am just so disappointed in myself for making such a careless mistake.  

I suppose I need to remember...

Oh, how I am TRYING!!  

Good thing I've got God, a ROCK of a husband, and an unbelievable village of family and friends to help me up when I fall!!

Counting Sheep...

I have counted sheep, cows, ducks, pigs... you name it!  I can't sleep!  It's driving me CRAZY!  There's definitely not a lack of desire.  That is certain.  I'm not sure that anyone loves sleep more than I do!  I just can't seem to get any!  This has been an ongoing problem all summer long.  I'll be honest.  I get my days and nights mixed up every summer (I'm pretty sure that I was meant to be nocturnal. HA! HA!), but I'm not sleeping well during the day either.  I have had more headaches this summer than I have had in quite some time and I have developed these beautiful (insert sarcasm) dark bags under my eyes because I just can't seem to get any good sleep.

The reason that I can't sleep is because...

I can't stop thinking about my baby.  That may sound SO CRAZY because we haven't even been matched with our child yet, but it is true.  I am constantly thinking and praying about my baby and his or her birth parents.  I am constantly wondering about him or her.

Is his or her birth mother still pregnant or has my baby already been born?  Could today be the day that my baby is born?  Could TODAY be my kid's birthday?  Are the birth parents scared?  How old are my baby's birth parents?  Is the birth mother all alone?  Does she have any support at all?  Is she a Christian?  What made her choose adoption over abortion in a country where abortion is so common?  OH, HOW THANKFUL I AM THAT SHE DID!!!

These questions and SO MANY MORE play over and over and over in my head every single night (and day).  I can only speak for myself, but I would imagine that most adoptive moms have similar questions that they think about often as well.  Although it may seem that way, these questions are not a product of worry.  They are simply a product of wonder and longing to know as much as I can about my child.  God has provided me with such a comfort and peace about this whole process.  I am praying that doesn't change!

I am going to TRY MY VERY BEST to get some sleep now!  Maybe I will try something new and count Zebras tonight/this morning! ;0)  I better figure something out pretty fast since school starts this week!!

It's a Small World...

Today has been a FABULOUS day!!  I got to meet someone today (in person) who has become an incredible friend and TREMENDOUS support to me in our adoption journey!  

This picture could be used on a billboard for "It's a Small World!"  You see, Tara and I "met" because she and her husband adopted their beautiful baby girl, Rossi Quinn, from the same orphanage in Taiwan where we are in the process of adopting our baby.  You might not think that's such a big deal, but they live in Muhlenburg County, KY (which is only a little over an hour away from Warren County, where we live).  What really makes it a small world, though, is that my really good friend and neighbor who lives RIGHT ACROSS THE STREET from me is one of Tara's best friends!  Tara and I became friends because of our connection on the other side of the world, but we also had a connection so close to home as well!  It really is such a small world!  

I was SO EXCITED about meeting Tara and Rossi Quinn!  I had a hard time going to sleep last night! I couldn't decide what to wear and to be completely honest, I cried a couple of times before going over to Millie's house.  I think I was so emotional because this was the first time I have met (in person) anyone from The Home of God's Love (That's the name of the orphanage in Taiwan.) and it just made me feel that much more connected to this amazing place where we hope to be eventually going to adopt our own precious child.  Meeting Rossi for the first time and actually seeing her in person made it that much more of a reality!  If I was this excited, emotional, nervous, etc. over seeing them, I can only imagine how I will be when we travel to Taiwan!  I should probably start stocking up on tissues now!  Maybe I should buy an extra suitcase just for my tissues!  LOL!  I've been telling you all that these adoption hormones are out of control! ;0)

As Tara said today, I also cannot wait for our babies to play together!  I can't wait to see a third little one on this little couch!  They were too cute today!  I just love both of these precious girls so much!!

I am so thankful for Millie and Olivia and so thankful that Millie arranged for Tara, Rossi, and I to meet today!  It really was the BEST DAY!!  :0)

Cherry Hope Stepping Stones

My extremely talented friend, Gayle Miller, creates the most beautiful stepping stones! She asked me if she could do a fundraiser for our adoption and designed this gorgeous stepping stone! The picture is beautiful enough, but it doesn't even begin to do it justice! If you would be interested in purchasing one of these stepping stones, please let me know. They are $35 each. We will have to do local orders only as they are very heavy and shipping would be nearly impossible. This one is now sitting in my landscaping and I LOVE it!!! Gayle is AMAZING and I can't thank her enough for being so generous!!

Happy Birthday, Uncle Justin!

Warning... The flood gates have opened tonight!  Raw emotion lies ahead.  Don't say I didn't warn you...

My child will have an uncle that he or she will not have the chance to meet here on Earth.  Does that make me sad?  What an understatement!  It absolutely breaks my heart!  Today (well, yesterday now - July 10) is Justin's birthday and while I think about him EVERY day, significant dates like today weigh a little more heavily on my mind.

My train of thought today has been a little different, though.  All I have been able to think about all day today is how my baby is not going to know his or her uncle, my fun and charismatic brother and friend.  How will I tell my child about his or her Uncle Justin?  How will I do justice to sharing the memory of someone who was loved so much by so many?

So... I've spent the day thinking about things that I loved about him and it's been good for my soul!

You see, I prayed for YEARS that God would give me a little brother or sister.  God answered my prayers (it may not have been exactly the way I imagined He would when I was a little girl, but He did answer my prayers).  He gave me both in the way of step-brothers and sisters but in my family we don't have steps.  We're just brothers and sisters!  I couldn't be happier with the answer that He gave and my life has been so richly blessed because He answered my prayers in this way!

Things I want Baby Cherry to know about his or her Uncle Justin...

1.  He was FUNNY!  He had such a GREAT sense of humor and he could ALWAYS make me laugh!  Even when I tried to be, I could never be mad at him and he knew it.

2.  He loved to have a good time and he loved to make sure that everyone else was having a good time as well!  He knew how to make a person smile and he had a smile that could light up a whole room!

3.  He had a BIG HEART!  He tried to pretend like he was a tough guy, but he really was just a big teddy bear with a great big sensitive heart!

4.  He LOVED kids!  He loved ALL kids, but he especially LOVED his own boys (my handsome nephews), Aiden and Landon!  He loved them so much!  They look so much like him, but both in different ways, but I see so much of him in their sweet faces.  He was a fun uncle too and I know he would be a wonderful uncle to my baby as well!

5.  He was loved by so many people!  He had such a charismatic personality that just made people want to be around him!  He is STILL loved by so many!

If you knew Justin and you have other wonderful things you would like to add about him in the COMMENTS, PLEASE DO!!  My family and I would LOVE that so much!  :0)

While my child may never meet his or her Uncle Justin here on Earth, Baby Cherry will be very blessed to have him has her Uncle Guardian Angel!  I LOVE YOU, SWEET BROTHER!

I'm pretty sure this picture was taken at Justin's going away party right before he left for Afghanistan.

Shirts for Sale!

We will be required to travel to Taiwan two times, so travel is going to be pretty expensive.  That being the case, we are having to do a little fundraising to offset the cost of our travel and other adoption expenses.  If you would like to help us out and show your support for Baby Cherry and adoption in general by wearing one of these really cool shirts, check out our Adoption Bug store at http://www.adoptionbug.com/cherryhope/.

If you want to order, you will order directly from our store on the Adoption Bug website http://www.adoptionbug.com/cherryhope/ and your shirts will be shipped directly to you.  

Shirts come in regular t-shirt sizes and in women's sizes.  We've learned that women's sizes are a little tricky, so PLEASE follow the following sizing guidelines if you are ordering women's sizes:

Relaxed 2XL = 2XL (22-24)

Relaxed XL = XL (18-20)

Relaxed L = L (14-16)

Now, here's where it gets a little tricky...

Fitted XL = M (12)

Fitted L = S (8-10)

Fitted M = XS (4-6)

Fitted S = XXS (0-2)

If you are local, I also have some shirts that you can try on, if you would like.  

If you do purchase a shirt, please take a picture of yourself in your shirt and send it to me!  I would also LOVE to create a book of photos for Baby Cherry of family and friends who supported him or her in this way!  Thank you again for being such an AMAZING support to us!  WE LOVE YOU!!

If you have any questions, please let me know!

Again, here is our site!  If the shirt isn't on this page, it will NOT go towards our fundraiser.  http://www.adoptionbug.com/cherryhope/

*IF , for some reason, you receive your shirt and it does not fit or you need to return it for any reason, let me know ASAP!  We only have 14 days to make returns and we can only return shirts that have NOT been worn (except for being tried on) or washed!  I will make returns for you.  It's really not that hard, but I do need to know ASAP!  :0) *

Heather and Annee

Auntie LC2